sunnuntai 26. joulukuuta 2010

Wake me up

Wake me up inside,
Tell me there's a reason,
To take another step,
To get up off my knees and,
Follow this path of most resistance,
And where ever it takes us,
Whatever it faces and wherever it leads.

Wake me up inside,
These dreams all die if we let them,
Wake me up inside,
Today won't start if we just give in,
Don't show me anything!

Just wake me when it's through,
I don't want to feel the things that you do,
Don't worry I'll be fine,
I just don't want this dream, wake me up inside.

lauantai 25. joulukuuta 2010

I'm on fire

Hey little girl is your daddy home,
Did he go away and leave you all alone,
I got a bad desire,
Im on fire.

Tell me now baby is he good to you,
Can he do to you the things that I do,
I can take you higher,
Im on fire.

Sometimes it's like someone took a knife baby,
Edgy and dull and cut a six-inch valley
Through the middle of my soul.

At night I wake up with the sheets soaking wet,
And a freight train running through the,
Middle of my head,
Only you can cool my desire,
Im on fire.

torstai 23. joulukuuta 2010

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na, Batman!

Na Na Na, Batman! t shirtAnd thanks for one person to introduce me to this wonderful piece of clothing !


A company,
Always on the run,
A destiny,
Its the rising sun,
I was born,
A shotgun in my hands,
Behind the gun,
I'll make my final stand,

And that's why they call me,
Bad Company,
I can't deny,
Bad Bad Company till the day I die,
Until the day I die,
Until the day I die.

Rebel souls,
Deserters we've been called,
Chose a gun,
And threw away the sun,
Now these towns they all know our names,
The death punch sound is our claim to fame.

Eye for an eye,
And a tooth for a tooth,
Blood for blood,
We've all gotta die.

Tiia tänne heti, kiitos !

keskiviikko 22. joulukuuta 2010

February, 2011

I'm attending Assembly Winter '11 at 11. to 13. February, 2011.
It's Finland's biggest computer lan party and World's second biggest after Dreamhack.
Does it denounce me as a nerd?
I've been to summer & winter Assemblies, both for three times, and always I've heard that people call me as a nerd.
What's the problem?
My other friends have attended also Assembly with me, but I'm the one who gets the nerd -stamp on his forehead.


Went through my life in my mind, just quickly.
And I realized that.. Your words have made me uplifted when I've been sad, your silly things have made me laugh, your voice is speech of an angel, it's soft, calming and after all, loveful.

We've had our fights & distinctions, but still, we hold on together, as friends, like we're designated to be friends, for the rest of our lives.
This is the feeling that I have towards you, don't let it go, don't let me down.
I've said bad things to you, done bad things to you, but behind my words, it's.. me.
A person who holds on you, keep you in my mind, every day, because, I love you, as a friend, a greatest of them all.

But now it's time to go sleep,
goodnight !

tiistai 21. joulukuuta 2010


I guess that.. this is the biggest privilege I get in my lifetime.
It's just a wall of text, but behind the wall, there's whole new different world, whole new different dimension.
World that I thought I would never ever see, but, now I know, how you you feel.

I wish that there would be a delete & reel buttons.. So I could go through my life, backwards, delete all the bad words that I've said, all the bad things I've done, but, no, there isn't.
This is life.


Tico woke me up at around 8:00 at morning..
Drank coffee and ate breakfast,
was just wondering that I could spend the day next to my computer.


She said it will be like one to two hours, but.. you know, you can never know what happens,
we spent eight fucking hours for that!! Though we found stuff we had to buy and other not-so important stuff !
I even got pink pyjama, yay !

Now I'm just talking to friends and drinking the world's best coffee, seriously, I even made it !
I'm feeling..tired and very exhausted..
Though I got bit adrenaline rush by a video that my friend linked to me..
I know you don't want to know what it is, but.. check it out if you dare.
Shit that's disgusting.. X_X

maanantai 20. joulukuuta 2010


Why she has to be so far away?
All I want is her to be here,
to give her a hug,
and tell her,
that I love you.


Ten fappers, three masturbating girls & 1 goatser @ Omegle
Girls were sweet, but the rest were.. terrible :(
Almost made me puke..

Living in a house of cards,
Waiting for it all to fall,
Hope for the best,
plan for the worst,
That's what my life is all about.


Feeling that I'm not trustful to receive a secret. 
I'll prove that wrong, day by day.

sunnuntai 19. joulukuuta 2010

Less snow, please :(
It's around -20 celsius here, daaaaaamn cold !

And the view from my room's window is.. nothing, but snowing!

lauantai 18. joulukuuta 2010


The one,
and only.

Last night's dream

I was wandering at the downtown,
all alone,
I was freezing,
without love,
scared of dark alleys.

Shadows were eating ground,
except one,
it walked towards me,

I raised my head,
the shadow was she,
she said,
"I love you."

After all, it was just a dream.
I'm never going to feel the feeling of,

Matter what I try,
I still fuck everything up,
I know it.

Ex Nihilo Nihil

After all,
why are we all here ?
What is our purpose ?
What is our destination ?

If God really exists,
when and why God has been made ?
Who's the creator of God ?
And who's the creator of God's creator ?

After all,

Ex Nihilo Nihil Fit,
something we can't understand, never ever.


Shattered dreams,
unending cry,
why ?

Why it's always me,
why none else,
why ?

Words from your mouth,
I thought they would light me up,
vice versa,
they made me falling,
falling from the dreams,
and when I hit the land,
it.. will.. hurt.

There's this girl waiting for me,
the one that I love,
but I'm too afraid to tell her.

She always listens to me,
cheers me up,
her words,
cheers me up,
her smile,
cheers me up

She is the one,
I love the most,
but I'm afraid,
feelings are not equal.